I have been staring at the shit load of work i have to do for the past few hours, not for the first time i take a break. I wonder to myself whether or not putting myself through university will be worth it in the end, i mean Richard Branson has made millions upon millions and he left school with just GCSES.
But seeing as i was looked over when God was handing out outstanding sporting or musical ability, it seems education is my best route to chase my dreams. Not that learning and gaining knowledge bothers me, i love being taught about about stuff i have no idea about. But this is the problem, are we ever actually taught for our own knowledge or just taught to pass exams.

Since the age of about 4 years old (maybe 5, as i was refused entry to a nursery because i was.......black. Word to my mums) , i have been through the lovely English education system, by no means have i been to the worst schools but not the best either.
Like other British children i have sat through S.A.TS (Year 2,Year 6 & Year 9), C.A.T's, GCSES, AS Levels, A-LEVELS and whatever other bloody tests they decide to throw our way, and aside from GCSES & A-Levels i have never really seen the benefit of these tests. The average 11 year old could tell you they are tested a lot, but it a study by Cambridge university confirms that british children are the most tested in Europe and it has no real benefits, its not like we have the best education system in the world and as far as i know, constantly having exams does not give you an advantage in the working world. All it does is cause unnecessary stress to children who already have to face the pressures of living in this crazy material world. It reinforces my thoughts that children are being forced to grow up to quick and not allowed to live like a child.
I think the Independent Article said it best,"Our children are tested to destruction".

What further bothers me about the education system is that forever will we be judged by letters or numbers on a certificate. Now i am not saying we don't need to distinguish students who are capable of excellence, but i think more often then not, being able to pass exams is portrayed as being the ultimate achievement and reward of spending 5 years in secondary school.
I really lament the fact that I feel i was never really taught some subjects, rather i was taught how to pass the exam for those subjects.
Government targets for schools and teachers means that is harder for pragmatic teachers to run the classroom how they want, and as its their job to make sure students pass exams rather then teach i feel we miss out on a lot of things.

Anyways, after getting through primary school,secondary school & sixth form, i am now in my 2nd year of university "chasing my dreams". It as by no means been easy, and i constantly curse our education system for the way it is structured, but to change things i must conquer them, Failure is one thing that spurs me on, but i also know knowledge is the key to unlocking many things in this world. I sometimes think that much of what i have previously learned in secondary school, has done very little for me as i face the daunting task of completing all this work. But perhaps the rigorous testing through out my school life as helped me to deal with some of the stress of university.
I by no means agree with with our education system and will admit it may have a tiny benefit, but since i have no real idea of how to change it, i guess there is not much i can say.

However, If i achieve my dreams , i know it will be down to the teachers who did more than teach me the syllabus.


An article on the british education system:.

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/education/education-news/our-children-tested-to-destruction-779790.html

"She don't believe in shooting stars, but she believes in shoes and cars"

I love this line from flashing lights.
I think Kanye West perfectly summarise's what is wrong with alot of todays young females (in fact todays society in general).
On the other hand maybe what best describes our society, is that gold digging females like Heather "One Leg" Mills, do not need to have any positive input in making their partner successful to obtain millions in divorce settlements, maybe its the fact to get a television program on MTV in this day and age, all you need to be is rich and talentless (and you only need one of these to qualify by the way).
Myspace seems to have made celebrities out of the most ordinary of people, its not just musicians who can make themselves a fortune from the internet. It may seem a little harsh, but the most talentless people are able to make a myspace page in order to make themselves famous. Girls seem to have it the easiest, pose in your underwear, write a paragraph in your about me section, add hundreds upon hundreds of horny teenagers and BAM! youre in the big time.
Or if youre not into the whole social networking thing, just get a camcorder, do something really pathetic, put it in youtube and if its stupid enough i guarantee you will have a television program soon. I sound like a moany old man, but it seems that as human beings we value getting famous quick over anything else.
Our search for material wealth seems to be the be all and end all for most people.

Just look at children..
Girls as young as 10 are more interested in the latest fashions rather then taking time to grow up, mobile phones, ipods, jewelry, make up & shoes all seem to be valued over enjoying those precious years where you have to worry about very little. I know i would love to go back to the days of not paying bills, doing essays & having to do my own shopping. But kids would rather be like 'No talent' Hilton then do something decent.

We idolise the rich and famous so much that we cant wait to imitate them and as long as we are content with our own spoils, we will always moan about change but never actually be bothered to do anything about it.
To be honest i shouldnt be such a hypocrite i guess, i wear levi jeans, listen to lupe fiasco on my ipod and watch reality television. But at the same time i dont idolise any of these things like so many other people do, im not saying people shouldn't enjoy the riches around us just dont make life about such things.
I Shake my head when i see young teenage girls fretting about how they look, when in reality they should enjoy what they can now. And it makes me laugh that we idolise such talentless fools on television programs that are ran like animal experiments.

But hey, maybe i should just "click the red X in the top corner of the page".

On my recent 3 hour journey to the 'lovely' middle of England , i sat on the train with my ipod playing away, flicking through 'four four two'. When Bashy's song 'Black boys' came on, a few months ago this song was released to coincide with "black history month", it apprently caused some stir in the white community for being racist.
How? is the question that sprung to my mind, when Bashy was far from promoting black supremacy but celebrating how much blacks had achieved.
Anyways i sat in my seat (which had cost me £25 return, bang bang young persons rail card gang) boppin my head to the beat, i listened to the names that Bashy "spat", Wiley, Kano,Dizzee, Jermaine Defoe, Swiss, So Solid, Lethal B... And i thought to myself is that all the black role models there are to look at? Sports star,Musician, sports star, musician,musician, sports star....oh wait, no theres Trevor Mcdonald, Sir Trevor i should say. But then it reverted back to the same routine, of musician,sports star, musician etc.
Undoubtedly musicians and sports stars show any one it is possible to rise to fame and riches, but are the target audience being wrongly given a false dream. Now many would take the song for what it is, a celebration of successful black Britons (despite some questionable inclusions) but myself i began to wonder why it was only sports stars and musicians being offered as role models for young black males.
Had the names of Harold Moody, Benjamin Zephaniah, Paul Boateng, Bishop Wilfred Wood and many other historical black Britons been left out because all black boys are now expected to be no more then entertainers, or is it purely down to the fact black boys do not want to be anything more than a entertainer. I mean i am all for people making their riches being a musician or sports star, but does education take a backseat when it comes to black boys?
Many government reports have often said that black boys stop excelling once they leave primary school, although a lot has been made of this issue, very little has changed as more and more black boys seem to fall into the trap. A number of black boys seek sports and music as alternatives to education, many going onto college to take courses in these to subjects.
Whilst i feel that education is not for everyone, a lot less emphasis is given to black boys when it comes to staying in school and doing more academic courses.
Whose fault that is, is a entirely different train of thought.

But it does bring me on to another point, whilst at Brunel seeing some friends, i got into a discussion and someone made the statement. "why should it be seen as an achievement for a black boy to go to university"
Obviously it is an achievement for anybody to go to university, but i knew exactly what he meant. Surely we should expect black boys to go to university rather then see it as a surprise.

Or does this go back to the fact of black boys being seen as entertainers first and foremost?

Maybe we should take a lesson from across the Atlantic..

Although more openly racist within America, it seems it is a lot easier for black people to become far more successful on the other side of the Atlantic. Not that, that means everything is all honky dory over there, but Barack Obama made a statement that probably wasn't far from the truth. He claimed that only in America could a black person get as far as he had. A black person has never been as close to number 10 Downing Street as Barack is to the white house, nor as a black person held such important positions as have Condoleeza Rice (and no you jackass its not a rice you can eat), or Colin Powell have done in recent times. Surely black people should be seeking to celebrate achievements such as these ones, rather then the ones that are so regularly shown to us.

I think once we make strides in these areas, we can truly say "Brap, black boys up in this bitch".